Do you ever wake up in the morning confused? And I don’t mean confused as in you woke up not knowing where you were, that’s usually after a night of drinking. I mean the confused where you just don’t understand anything, like your feelings or your thoughts. Well if this has never happened to you then…I’m alone in that. Which I have no problem with, so I shall write this for myself in hopes of clearing my head.
Every now and again I get this cloud of confusion that I just can’t swipe away and it gets really bothersome even though I know it will go away soon. The thing about it going away is I never know when it’s going to come back, it’s very frustrating and makes me want to pull my hair out.
Normally I understand myself and all the feelings I have but when I’m under this cloud none of my feelings make sense. I can’t tell what makes me happy or what makes me angry and it tends to lead me to making the wrong decisions. In the past I’ve tried to fight my way through the confusion but it just ended with a migraine and more confusion. So, now I just go with it, I don’t plan on making big decisions and I just sit back and relax. It is never enjoyable but at least I don’t end up with a headache. This time around it’s a bit harder to deal with since I have a cold but I’m managing. It always works itself out as long as I don’t push it. Here’s to hoping it won’t last so long this time.